Some things happen with a reason.

You might know me as a person with mulut puaka and always cursing people every day. I guess no one wants to curse people everyday without reason.
But u might not know the reason I'm being like this. People always say what you do or what happen to u now makes what u will become...I might say its true.
I consider myself a good person back then. Always trying to please people. Always volunteer to take the job. Always trying to help them sincerely with whatever method I can. But, people always trying to take advantage. I don't even realize they make use of me. I remembered what people do at me back then. Clearly. If that kind of thing happens now, believe me, you know what im gonna do.

And I clearly remember when someone told me to take hot water and I went downstairs to take it for her. I don't even know why i'm so fucking stupid to follow her order. She order me around bcos she know i'm the kind of person she can use for. Even my friend notice it and scold me and even ask me not to do. But I just smile and do it sincerely like nothing happen.

I guess I change a little bit after that and I just realize how stupid I am. When i'm getting older, I had a kind of paranoia thinking someone want to use me if he order me to do something for many times. And I can't stand rude people bcos im not. I won't be rude to people if they are not rude in the first place.I don't know if I still can forgive these people. Maybe yes, but I will remember it for my whole life.

I kept a lot of things that I can never told anyone in my heart. A lot of things from the past. Not even my bestfriend or my parent. So, bear with me if I keep saying something that might hurt you. Perhaps you think its kinda bad. Sometimes, it just a joke. Sometimes its because I love u so guys so much.