Melancholy

Tutorial is cancelled and here I am, writing my piece of mind since I left my blog for a long time already. Its not that I don't have anything to say, in fact I have a lot but I dunno how to express it. When I express it, my feeling will not be in peace anymore. So I tend to laugh over and over again, not for special reason sometimes. Its solely to keep my mind at ease. Since all that problems and saddest thing came into my life without permission, a lot of thing has changed. I almost lost my hope, but then thinking Allah is always there watching for me and hearing my pray, I gathered my strength again, hoping that everything will be okay and go on with my life. I always laugh out loud but deep down inside my heart, who knows other than Allah. Only Allah knows how I feel everytime I go to sleep. Only Allah knows what I've been thinking these day.

I have a lot to say but I only can say it to my Creator. Saying all these thing over and over again only hurts my feeling, like putting the salt into the wound. But then, what can I do?